I have COVID-19. I still don’t believe this is true. My family and I have been so careful for the last 9 months not to catch it! Then it came, so quickly and unexpectedly.
The girls were self-isolating at home as someone at their nursery had a confirmed case. We were hoping we will be OK, unfortunately, on Tuesday evening I suddenly started coughing. I had shivers all night and couldn’t sleep. We straight away suspected the virus and booked a test in the morning. On Wednesday I felt awful. Shivers were still there with temperature and that dreadful cough. I didn’t have the energy for anything and stayed in bed most of the day.
Wednesday night wasn’t much better, although shivers were gone, my whole body was in pain. When the morning came I woke up with a fire in my throat and more body pain. It just got me so much and I was really upset. The tears wouldn’t stop falling and I also felt scared for my girls. I was thinking what if they start to show symptoms, how will they cope with this. This emotion was so so scary. I was sitting on the floor watching girls getting dressed up trying to be brave.
When something happens or is about to happen we always try and explain to girls so they understand there is a change. Both Sophie and Hanna are aware of the virus but until it came to our house we felt safe. When I told Sophie I have the virus I saw her little eyes looking at me with a worry and love. She gave me a hug and I burst to tears.
Next couple of days were much more of the same with body pains, cough and extreme tiredness. Also, when you have children there is no such thing as relaxing and laying in bed to get better. You still need to attend to them, feed them and look after them. It’s not easy to be a parent when you are sick and I feel for all parents who had Covid and has to look after little ones at the same time.
A few times when I was coughing hard and trying to clear my throat I was gasping for air but thankfully it cleared quickly. Once I had those moments I got really scared and thought of those poor people who are fighting for their lives in hospitals. This illness is scary and it’s real. You are fine one moment and then it knocks you down. I consider myself being very lucky that my symptoms were tough for me but still relatively mild to what others are going through.
Thankfully I am much better now and although still coughing and I can’t taste or smell anything (this came on Sunday) most of the other painful symptoms are gone.
These below pictures I took to document the days how I felt and how vulnerable I felt in my own body.
If you had Covid or currently going through it let me know if I can help you at all. It is tough but we can go through it together. I also wanted to say thank you to all my friends and family who have offered help. You are all amazing and I am thankful to have you in my life.
Sending lots of love.
Ewa x
